Visions: Habakkuk!!! Fear Not!!! Bible Study

Monday 15.Oct.07 21:30pm
Bible study!!! Fear Not !!!
Today I went to Bible study with the Girls but today for some reason it was different. First I found out that the Classes are for bible College and that struck me art. I didn’t knew this. I wasn’t afraid of the learning, but I am brand new to this. I still have so many basic Questions and I feel they won’t get answered. We have a wonderful teacher and I believe if she had the time for one on one bible study with me things could be a lot better. I feel like I would hold up the whole class by all my questions I still have and need to know answers while
I am studying the bible. The Lord is already teaching me a lot and I am so grateful for it. Gary my E-Mail friend is always helping me too and pretty much has an answer for just about everything. I call him Wisdom man. He has a cool way to make me understand and he helps me the best way he can. And it’s fun too. He says I ask interesting questions. I don’t have a problem with bible study itself I know if I would be given more time with it I would do just fine with the help of the Lord. See I had 2 Weeks time to study John the beloved in the bible and I just did fine with it. I really understood what I was reading I mean I real got into it and learned a lot. I believe if everybody really understood the way
I did John and about Jesus Love for us, the world would be a better place. I could give you a hundred reasons why I think like that. And that’s how, I want to understand the whole bible and not rush trough it. Everybody grew up here with the bible and the teachings of Jesus.
I haven’t. No that’s not completely correct. I know some bible stories and what we learned in Germany but that wasn’t enough. Nobody ever explained anything. The teaching were so dry and straight from the book, the old version and when you are a little kid you don’t understand it. I am not blaming anybody for it but they automatically assume that I know the bible. They just keep forgetting. See it’s like that. If they would go to Germany and I would give them a German bible and say okay now study it. Even if they would speak the Langue witch they are words in the bible I never heard of before. John was crystal clear to me. God gives me answers. But there are some words in a sentence for instant if I don’t know that word the whole Verse doesn’t seem to make sense. Seems like most of the praying I do is, ask God for knowledge, wisdom, and understanding and trust me on that he helps me a lot. And he teaches me so much. Since the day I got saved that was on August 17th 2007 he gives
me Visions left and right. I am writing everything down because he wants me to I know it. It’s so much I hardly can’t keep up with the writing. And I know he wants me to do Pictures with it. First I wrote everything in my Journal in German but now I am writing it down in English too. You have no Idea how busy he keeps me. He even shows me witch other books to learn from. I love him for that because he has a unique way of teaching me. He understands me and knows how I learn. I am writing something and I am not sure how to put it down on paper he makes sure he pops that word into my head. He never fails me. He is my best Friend. He guides me all the way. It’s like a whole new world opened up for me. I am soooooooo great full for all the Love he shows me. He fills me up to the brim. I never knew such Love before. He showers me with it. I could sit here and write ten letters about his love for me and everybody he has. I just close my Eyes and he is always with me. He consumes me all day from morning until night. Like they would say 24 hours 7 days a week. Also I discovered it’s all in the PRAYER. The more you pray the more you see
and hear. He makes it fun too. He loves to see me happy. Just on that subject alone I could write another 10 pages. He shows me the Pictures and Visions, and I can’t draw a lick but I try my best. He knows the Internet also and lets me find the pictures I need so I can show my Visions. Without him I would be
nothing. It’s all him and through him that I am able to write everything down on paper so that others will understand. You must excuse my poor Grammar but this is not my native Langue witch. He shows me what I need to know from the Bible. And yes I want to learn everything I can, he knows it. I was in such agony about not going to the bible class anymore. See, He shows me all to write everything down and I would not have the time to do so with all the studying I would have to do. It’s not like I am chicken out of it but I need more time to study the bible. You don’t put a kid from Elementary school in College class.
See it’s the flesh what says oh if I don’t go to that Class anymore people think I am dumb and they don’t except me anymore. Just now when I made new friends. Or they think of me less but I know what God wants me to do.
It’s like I would not have the time to pray like I want to anymore and write down everything and study at the same time anymore. It’s like overload. That would take time away from him. What he really wants me to do. See Pastor’s Alan wife Jackie wanted to help me last Wednesday to study in the Morning and I was so great full that she would take the time to do this with me. But I was in such misery of telling her why I can’t do it in that paste. I prayed so hard about it to the point that I cried to God about it. And I ask him to show me what to do. If I am doing the right thing by leaving the Class. Maybe at least I could sit in and listen and learn even if I don’t do all the studies. If they let me and still want me. I ask God please to show me the answer if I am doing the right thing and he did. That was Tuesday Night at 23:29 pm when I was in bed. I said God, “I will stick my Finger in the Bible and please show me what
I need to know. Please show me the way ” And he did. That’s what he showed me.
Habakkuk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Chapter 2 Verse 1-4
I will stand upon my watch, and set me upon the tower, and will watch to see what he will say unto me, and what I shall answer when I am reproved.
2. And the Lord answered me, and said, Write the Vision, and make it plain upon tables, That he may run that readeth it.
3.For the Vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: Though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.
4. Behold, his soul which is lifted up is not upright in him: but the just shall live by his faith.
That’s what he gave me and I was so relieved. I thanked him from the bottom of my Heart and closed my Eyes.
I saw the white Flow ( Spirit) come upon me and saw Jesus. Wow!!!!!!!. He had on a white rope with a I don’t know the name for it but it was like a belt or cordel rapped around his waist. He was huge and the light Oh so brilliant. The only thing I could not see was his Face but I knew it was him. It was because I saw him from the front this time. Where his Face was, was just full of brilliant white light. So iridescent. Just thinking about it makes me all happy and tingly. I’ve seen him before but only from his side and another time when everything started he carried me on his shoulder andI looked down at his feet. Like footprints in the sand. And he told me he carried me the whole time.
Oh I love him so. I hope you understand now what I am trying to say. Also I woke up again that night and started to worry again. So I prayed again and this time I heard the Voice clear as Day!! Fear Not!!!!!!!!!!!