Your Brothers Eye.....

Friday 7 Sept.07 15:30 pm
Your Brothers Eye…..
Right now I am sitting in the Park and writing in my Journal all I can say that I am really unhappy, sad and hurt. I know my Girlfriend for over 20 Years and her Children I don’t want to name no names because it’s not about who is right or wrong it’s about a friendship what got destroyed since I got saved by the Lord. My Girlfriend and her Kids really helped me to get over the divorce and were there for me and I really appreciate everything she did for me that is why I don’t understand how things could turn out this way they did. When I got saved I had the Vision in “My Fathers house are many Mansions”
and I told her about it she wasn’t as happy as I thought she would be for me. She came over with another friend and that friend was happier for me than she did.
I could not understand it. The more my Visions increased and I told her about it she didn’t like what she heard I think and of course I had a lot of questions and she always had all the answers for everything. Maybe I ask to many questions. I don’t know. The funny thing is she told me about the Lord and stirred me in that direction and Gary’s book ( after reading Gary’s book it was like a 1000 light bulbs went on in my head) gave me the final understanding of it and now that I got saved I thought she would be happy for me, but everything changed. I called her this afternoon and told her how things been going and all of sudden I don’t know what happened she came down on my like Thunder and Lightning. All of a sudden I had so many faults and she just sounded plain mean and I am being nice here.
When she was done with chewing me out she said, but I have a good Heart. It was like somebody whacked me over the Head and I don’t understand until this day what I did really wrong in her Eyes. I was hurting for quite a while over this and
I still think about it now and than. One thing she was right about it though, she always said one door closes and another door opens up. I talked to the Lord about it because I was so hurt and I told him that I can’t deal with that and that he please take it from me. And every time that situation came back into my Head
I told the Lord over and over again to please take care of it for me, because I gave it to him already. And he did. I think about two to three months later she came here unannounced to see me, but not with the right attentions. I don’t know if she expected me to be a heap in the floor and I was all nerves when I stood across from her, daughter and mother but the Lord gave me strength and all the right words to say. You see he warned me the night before she came I just didn’t put two and two together. I saw a fist coming through the clouds stopping short of my Stomach and than I saw all my Letter in the yellow file folders flying out. She even tried to discourage me from writing and mocked it. But she didn’t succeed, the Lord gave me my purpose and I do my very best to fulfill it. Thank you Lord for helping me.
What I learned so far is that people try to find so much fault with another person that it is usually the fault they have with themselves. Now as time went on I understand why. It was all about Power and Jealousy on her part witch is so sad, it didn’t have to be that way. I still miss her.

Luke 6:41-42
41"Why do you look at the speck (splinter) of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 42 How can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me take the speck (Splinter) out of your eye,' when you yourself fail to see the plank (Beam) in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.